Bobby,... I know it isn't a special day or anything, but I wanted you to know how much I miss
you. I would gladly take your place if I could only have a minute to tell you how much I love you. I know you are happy now
and will never feel pain again. Now it is me that feels the pain. The pain of losing you. The pain of knowing I can't look
into your face and tell you that I love you. I know you don't want me to be sad and I know that you don't want me to cry.
There are somethings I have no control over. Loving and missing you are only two of those things. I only wish I could have
told you one last time how much I loved you before you left. Not being able to tell you that or to say goodbye, and not being
able to do anything to help you when I found you lying there, have been what hurts the most. I want you to know that
when you left you took a big part of me with you. There is a big hole in my heart that will never be filled until we can walk
sisde by side once again. Dad and I so miss your weekly visits and being able to sit and talk with you. Although I know you
are with me in spirit, oh, how I wish you were with me in body. My heart aches for you and the tears are never ending. As
you look down on me while I cry don't feel bad for me. Know that my tears are a part of my love for you and just as my love
is never ending so are the tears.
I would give anything just to be able to hug you and tell you that I love you. We will
be together again someday. But only God knows when that day will be. But I want you to know that until God calls me home my
heart will always be with you. Just as I know your heart is with me now as I sit here writting this through tears that are
freely flowing. My tears will never be wasted because they will always be a part of you and everything you mean to me.
Please, if you can ever find a way to come and talk with me it would be wonderful. To hear your
voice even though it was coming from heaven would help to ease my heart. I will always hold you in my heart and the love I
have for you will be never ending. I know there is no way I can ever bring you back but you will always know that you
are loved here on earth just as you are in heaven.
Take care and never forget how much I love you.
Loving you always,
January 18, 2005
Son...I have some good news. (But, you probably
knew this before I did) You have a new grandaughter. Mekinzie Ann Lackey came into this world on Jan. 17,
2005. She weighed in at 6 lbs. 7 oz., and she is 19 in. long. I haven't been to see her yet because I have
been sick with bronchitis and coughing, and I do not want to take any chances on making her or Ahsley sick. BJ is as
proud as a peacock, (you would think he did it all by himself) just the way you were when he was born. She arrived by
c-section just like BJ. I sure do wish that you were here to help me and your dad spoil our first great-grandchild.
Of course, her grandma Toni would not think of helping to spoil that precious little one. I talked to Jessica.
She is a proud Aunt. She was going to call Adam and let him know that he is an Uncle. And of course Brittaney.
All 4 of your children, daddy BJ, Aunts Jessica and Brittaney, and Uncle Adam, along with grandma Toni, great Aunts Lisa and
Deanna, and your dad and I (and that's just a few)not to mention Ashleys family, will all have a hand in making sure that
little girl is not spoiled. Yea, sure! Can't wait to get ahold of her.
I love you son. There is not a day goes by that you
are not on my mind. And, you will certainly never be out of my heart. I will love you with the last beat of my
heart.
Love forever....Mom
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January 20, 2005
My dear son...I finally got to see your new grandaughter. She sure is cute.
BJ looks like the proud new daddy. But, I still think he is to young. He is only 16. But, you would be so
proud of him for taking his responsibility seriously. He is going to school to finish high school, and he is also working.
I sure do wish you were here to help all of us spoil this precious little Mekinzie. When BJ picked her up, she looked
so small in his big hands, just like Jessica did in your hands. BJ never was that small. He sure is turning out
to be a good young man. And, I can always count getting a big hug and a "I love you, Grandma" from him no matter where.
And, he actually stops by the house sometimes, just to say 'Hi, I love you". We are so proud of him, just like we are
of you. Well, son, I better go now, before I start to cry and spoil the good news. I love you with all my
heart and I miss you so much. Lots of love forever and always..Mom
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February 2007
My precious Bobby...I have some more wonderful news for you. Our precious
Jessica called me today and told me that she is having a baby. She was so happy she could hardly keep from crying from
joy. She has wanted this since she and Robert got married. That's right son, you are going to be a grandpa
again! Isn't that wonderful! Of course, it does not seem that you, my child, could possibly be a grandpa.
If it is a boy, they are going to name him Robert O'Brien. I think that you would have been a wonderful
grandpa...and, of course you would not think of spoiling any of your grandchildren...right? haha! I sure do wish
that they had the opportunity to get to know you. I know they would love their Grandpa Bobby almost as much as I do.
Lots of love and hugs from a heart that is still broken......Mom
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Well, son...Your new grandson was born today, August 24, 2007. I sure am
anxious to see him and hold him. They named him Donnovan Noah. They said that since there is already a Robert
O'Brian that another one would be to wierd. Jessica and Robert are so happy and excited. But, it would add
so much to that happiness if you could be there to help spoil little Donnovan. I know that Dad and I are certainly
going to do our part in that department.
We all still love and miss you so very much, son.
All our love forever...Mom
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3-27-2007
"BOBBY"
MY WONDERFUL SON-IN-LAW
If a mother could pick the man her only daughter would marry, I would pick a man who is
kind,
patient and loving toward others.
He would be a man who cares about the feelings of those around him and
never belittle people or judge them by any standard.
He would love and cherish his wife and children more than himself
and go out of his way to help someone whenever he can.
Bobby, you were all of these things and much, much more. You were the one who always
stepped up and offered your help when things broke down and needed repairs.
You put your own feelings and needs aside if someone needed you and you never let us down,
ever.
I am so proud to say that you were and will always be "my son" and I could not have asked
for anyone better than you to be my daughter's husband.
It is so hard to accept your absense but I know you are with
our Lord and full of all the joy heaven has to offer so I rest easy knowing that we will all be
with you in eternity.
Bobby, I love you and miss you as though you were my own and in a way you were
my son, too.
Love Always,
Your other Mom, Linda
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You are seldom far from our thoughts, and, you are always in our hearts. We will love
you with the last beat of our heart.
Mom, Dad, Lisa, Dee and Ray
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May 2, 2009
My dear and precious son....It was 8 years ago today that
I went by your house and found you lying there. My heart almost stopped and I knew that I would never hear your sweet
voice again. Though efforts were made to save you, you had already gone. And, so was my heart. A huge
hole was now in the place where my beloved first-born child, my son had filled. That hole is still there...and so are
the memories of that awful day. But, then I remember your sweet smiling happy face, and and the pain you were in
for so many years...and I know that now you are happy and free from pain. The pain in my heart has demisnished, though
there are still some tears and a few bad days....and, you are always in my heart, and on my mind. I will love you and miss
you until the last beat of my heart. With lots of love and hugs from the bottom of my still broken heart....Mom
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May 14, 2009
Well, Son....You have another grandson. Little Michael was born today to your little
Brittaney. It hardly seems possible that our little britches could be old enough to be a mommy. Time sure has
flown by. This makes 6 grandchildren for you. There is BJ's daughter, Mackenzie: Jessica's little Donnovan;
Adams Cryatal, Abrith and Dustin; and now Brittaney's little boy Michael. I wish that you were here so that they could
get to know the wonderful man you were. I know you would have a great time helping to spoil them...
I love and miss you so much, son. And, so does your dad.
From the bottom of our hearts....Mom
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